This post is not easy for me to write. At all.
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Some of you may know, last week my boyfriend and I (along with all of his friends) suffered a major loss. The last week was one of the most emotionally draining and saddest weeks of my life. And to be honest, I’m not feeling 100% right now. Which I know is okay. But I also know that now we need to start moving on day by day, hour by hour, little by little. And that’s where this blog comes into play. To be honest, I’m not feeling super motivated. There’s really a very small part of me that wants to create happy content. As hard as it is, I know I need to distract myself and dive back into work.
Although life seems so unfair sometimes, there’s always something to be thankful for. Optimism is contagious. It’s as simple as a smile. So since life is never guaranteed to stop with throwing curveballs, what you can do is switch your attitude to stop them from taking over your life and look for the silver linings.
Here are some of the small silver linings I’ve seen the past week:
Tragedy brings people together.
Last week was truly a testament to the type of person Matt’s best friend was. And all of Matt’s friends were finally together (of course, in very unfortunate circumstances). It warmed my heart to see all of these people together and just supporting each other in this horrible time. The amount of love between this group of friends is amazing, and bonded them in a way they didn’t know was possible. Some of these people we haven’t seen in forever, and many of them I don’t know too well. But after last week, I felt so much more connected to my boyfriend’s friends and know how much they love us.
Big belly laughs come at the most unexpected times.
Through the tears, there were a lot of laughs. I loved hearing stories from their college days or even before then. I loved going through ridiculous photos with some of his closest friends and seeing them genuinely laugh. It was certainly refreshing and exactly what everyone needed.
A large iced coffee is always there for you.
Do I need to say more? There is nothing better than a gigantic iced coffee (sweetened with a lot of cream) to help wake you up when you need a pick me up.
Seeing your family is everything.
After a tough few days, we stopped by my cousins’ house to see three of my baby cousins. When I first saw them, I couldn’t stop hugging them. I loved watching them play and laugh and just getting my mind off of reality for a while. I truly cherish every moment I have with my family, and seeing them randomly made me feel better.
So while the pain of losing a friend is still raw as hell, I’m vowing to begin taking a step — even if it’s a baby step — forward every day to get through this and look for my silver linings. And to anyone who reached out on Instagram, Twitter or Facebook, I can’t tell you how much your words mean to me. Thank you.
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